3 Things I Learned in February

IMG_2347Happy Wednesday! I also can not believe it’s March. That is totally insane. Today I am linking up with Emily P. Freeman and I’m going to tell you all a few things I learned in February.

  1. My most used word on Facebook is Disneyland. But, why is that not everyone’s? Look at this beautiful magical place… IMG_0533
  2. I am completely addicted to Starbucks. I love taking my hour lunch to sit, drink coffee, and connect with you all. IMG_2333
  3. I want to blog/write for a living. I learned that I am so totally in love with this blog and I want to reach out to people who need Jesus or who need someone to relate to. FullSizeRender (1)

You are More Than Enough

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There is not one part of you that God wishes wasn’t there. You are made in the image of the glorious and wonderful Savior. So many times I’ve failed and thought (like actually thought) God doesn’t love me when I do this. Do you know how much of a lie that is? A big huge stinkin’ fat gross lie!

You are loved, so loved. You don’t have to try to be better in order for God to love you. He loves you now. In all your imperfected beauty, he loves you. Loves you. Please take a moment and understand what I’m saying. There is nothing you can do to make God stop loving and caring for you. 

I struggle with clinical depression. I absolutely hate it but it’s a struggle that I have in my life that I need to overcome. I will overcome it,  but right now in the midst of this trial and tribulation I have to remind myself that I am still enough for God. Even though I don’t feel or think that on a daily basis. I need to let myself know that he loves me and it’s okay to be loved. I think some people get it in their head that they shouldn’t be loved because either they don’t feel like they deserve it or they feel like they can give themselves the love they need by pouring their heart into worldly things. Please know that God is the only one who can fully satisfy you. Nothing and no one in this world will love you as much as God does. Because we’re selfish. But we’re also enough for Christ to love, care, nurture, and guide.

If you choose to pour your heart into the word, your life will reflect it and you just might be surprised of what you can accomplish. When you’re feeling down I pray that you have the strength to stand against the enemy and declare that you are a child of God and you are enough.IMG_2328

How I Turned my Weakness into a Strength

Hey all! I am so glad you’re here, because today is a post about something that is very close to my heart. I heard God speak to me more than I’ve ever heard him before. A huge revelation. At least to me. I hope you can get something out of this.

Here is my latest video about how I turned my weakness into a strength. I say it all in this video. I tried for hours and hours to put it into words on a screen but I just couldn’t do it. It sounded silly. But this video I made almost immediately after I received this word so I hope you can see my passion through this.

PS: if you liked the video there will be oceans more. Subscribe to my channel to see more!

Pursue Your Calling

“Wow I really regret following my dreams and doing what God has put on my heart” – Said no one EVER.

 

You know that thing that’s in the back of your mind just gnawing at you? That thing that screams you, like this is what you’re supposed to do. But it seems so scary and out of reach that you eventually believe that’s not your calling. But deep down you know. You know. That is your calling, destiny, fate, purpose, life, whatever you want to call it you know that is what you need to do. So you bring it up to someone and they totally shoot it down. Or they just aren’t excited about it as you are and you become discouraged. Well don’t listen to them. Listen to what is driving you crazy and you can’t seem to get it out of your head. Take a leap of faith and just do it. It’s scary, and you might cry. But just stinkin do it. If you put 100% in I know you won’t regret it. This whole blog and youtube thing freaks me out. For real like totally freaks me out and every time I put up a post or a video I get so nervous. The kind of nervous that happens when you’re about to go up in front of a bunch of people and your palms get sweaty, your face starts to feel warm, and you almost back out. But something inside you says no, you need to do this. You can do this. You will do this. Even though I’m scared and nervous I know I’m following the desires the Lord has put on my heart.

 

I think sometimes people start to believe that if it scares them or challenges them then that’s not the work for them. When in reality if it scares you, then you should probably do it. Now, I’m not saying if jumping off a bridge scares you then go do it. I’m saying that the thing you find so inspiring that you wish you could do for the rest of your life is what you should work for. I know it seems so out of reach and you wonder how you could ever accomplish whatever it is you wish to succeed at. But, what I’m learning is you just need to take one step at a time. Take me for instance, I want to make a living sharing the words God has given me. I took the first step by starting a YouTube channel, then I started a blog, then I bought the domain. It doesn’t have to be a big leap. You’re not going to accomplish it overnight. But each little step is moving forward and as long as you move forward you will get to where you want to go. It’s going to take time but the time will pass whether you start today or not.

 

I challenge you to really listen to what it is God has called you to do. If you are already following your calling then I challenge you to take it further. What is one thing that scares you but you and everyone around you will benefit from? Do that.  

Learning to Love Yourself

If you’re anything like me then loving yourself is difficult. But, I’ve realized that life is so much easier when you appreciate who you are. I know it will be a tough journey but if you stick with it I promise you will feel so free.

For years I honestly thought I wasn’t good enough and I kick myself for not realizing this earlier but I am. We are made in the image of God. Now, I know you hear that a lot especially if you grew up in the church but really think about it. The same God who made this beautiful earth with the breathtaking mountains, awe-inspiring oceans, and so much more lives in you. LIVES in you. When you don’t feel like you’re enough, or worth it, it’s like telling God he’s not good enough because he made you. When I first heard that it scared me. The kind of scared that happens when you’re 6 and your mom says “We’ll wait until Dad gets home to deal with this.” The gut-wrenching kind of scared.

I felt guilty for feeling the way I felt. I didn’t want to tell God he wasn’t good enough, because he’s amazing. I just felt like I didn’t deserve to belong to such a marvelous King. Looking back it makes me sad that I ever thought or felt that.

I want you to know that you are enough and you are worth it! Here is what I did to get to where I am today. Also keep in mind that I still struggle but deep down in my heart I know that I am beautiful and I don’t stop doing these two simple things.

Pray. There is power in prayer you guys. Pray your little heart out until you believe you are beautiful.

Read the word. John 1:1 says “In the beginning was the word and the word was with God and the word was God.” Those words in there are not just words. They are God’s words written for you. Did you get that? They’re for you.

I know you might be thinking that you’re told to do this all the time and you still feel the way you feel. Keep going. It took me years to finally believe it and realize that the negative thoughts are from the enemy.

So I end with a prayer.

I pray that each and every one of you reading this finds hope, love, and grace. I pray that you feel joy from the Lord. There is nothing like it. I want you to experience that. I pray that you spend time with Christ and hear what he is telling you. In the name of Jesus the enemy has to flee. Let light overcome the darkness.

Amen.

When you don’t feel worth it

SplitShire-6767When you don’t feel worth it, just know that you are.

Do you have that one person in your life you can’t thank enough? That one person that makes you wonder if you’re dreaming? That one person who is there and deep inside you know that they are never leaving. No matter what you do.

That one person you fell completely in love with and didn’t even realize it.

I sure do. And he’s more than I could have ever dreamed of. I want to write this to show him that all the things he does are recognized and appreciated.

I love you because…

  • You treat me well
  • You accept me for who I am
  • You don’t judge me
  • You listen
  • You love
  • You compliment me
  • You lead me spiritually
  • You are the best thing that has ever happened to me
  • You enjoy spending time with me
  • You make an effort
  • You make me feel like I am worth something

Now, you don’t need a man or woman to make you feel like you are worth something. But I’m going to be one-hundred percent real. I never thought I would have someone like this. He is everything I thought I never deserved. He inspires me to be a better person because he deserves the best and so do I. And so do you. If you are in a relationship and everything on this list is opposite of how they make you feel then I encourage you to think about what you’re worth. And let me tell you, you are worth a million dollars. You don’t need anyone to tell you this and you sure don’t need anyone to make you feel like you’re not worth it.

Don’t lose sight of yourself and your worth. I know its hard and I’m still working on that myself. But, you just can’t listen to those lies in your head and the lies that people tell you. It does not matter where you came from, what you look like, if you have a college degree, what job you have, what matters is that you believe you ARE worth something. You are worth it, you are a blessing, you are a beautiful creation. You are the daughter or son of THE KING. Do you understand that??? You are royalty. You are someone.

I hope this post helped you as much as it helped me. So when you don’t feel worth it, just know that you’re not alone and that you are worth it.

You have so much potential. Remember that.

If Flowers Say I’m Sorry…

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If flowers say I’m sorry then today I’m going out and buying myself some flowers. Today I apologize to myself. I’m sorry for not treating my body the way it should be treated. I’m sorry I put myself down. I’m sorry I don’t take care of myself. I’m sorry that because of the way I treat my body it leads to so much more. You only have one body. So why not treat it right. I’m saying sorry to my body for being so self-destructive sometimes without even realizing it.

I’m talking about weight, depression, anxiety, and insecurities. Today I throw all of that out because who really wants that? I don’t either. But as I sit here and think about it. I was the one who did this. I put unhealthy food in my body that led to gaining weight. I feel anxious and insecure around people because I let the lies get to me. And when you listen to the lies you start to believe them. Now, depression is a bit of a different story. I didn’t want this. I didn’t give this to myself. I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. But I am sorry to myself for not taking care of this earlier.

Today I start to love myself. It will be such a long process but I know it’s worth it. After an apology, comes the healing process. Saying sorry to yourself may feel a little awkward or weird or even unnecessary but for me, I needed it. I needed to know that I was truly sorry so that I could move on. I want to be healthy, confident, and happy. And I will. It just takes time.

I love my body and I love myself. Even if I don’t fully believe that right now I know that I will and I know that in order for me to be happier and healthier I absolutely have to love who I am. I can’t change who I am I can only improve.

Scattered Brain

14385356454bc5d-600x523Hi guys. Welcome.

I’m sitting here at work and I’m bored. So I figured why not start a blog. I mean that’s what people do these days right? I’m cool. I have a craft blog but it’s so much pressure to blog only about crafts all. the. time. So I stared “Scattered Lyfe” because it’s fun and gives me the freedom to blog about whatever I want. Also life was taken so I chose lyfe. But it makes it unique and that’s what I like. My brain is a little all over the place right now. I am thinking of money, work, church, family, friends, and pizza. I hope that we can become friends and this blog becomes a creative outlet for not only me but for you as well.

Bye.