This has been a long awaited post. I knew ever since I started blogging that this would be a post I would eventually put out for the world to see. It is so close to my heart but it’s not necessarily the most fun thing to talk about. Because honestly, sometimes friends aren’t really nice people. My whole entire life my parents have taught me how to be a great friend. Whether they knew they were teaching me or not, they were and I take it seriously. Being a loyal friend is one of the most important things in my life. I make it a point to treat people the way I want to be treated. Now unfortunately throughout my life I was mistreated, taken for granted, and bullied by people I called or hoped to call my friends. It took me a long time to call someone my best friend again and I still struggle with it.
Growing up I was always nice to others and wanted more than anything to have a group of friends but I never did. I mean, there were a few people I would talk to at school but at the end of the day they weren’t there. I would occasionally become really close with someone and we would be “best friends” but then something changed and they became mean. I didn’t understand why that happened and still to this day I don’t fully understand it. But I do know that through all of that God was there. He gave me the strength to walk away from a friendship when I wasn’t being treated right. I still loved them but I just chose to love them from a distance. Because the truth is, we don’t have to be friends with people we don’t want to be friends with. I understand people go through tough times and you can absolutely work through it but ultimately you need to decide whether this is a phase or who they are. I thank God for each and every friend I have and I thank God I am able to walk away from a toxic situation.
I am very careful around new friends because I don’t want to become too emotionally invested in the friendship for it to turn out the wrong way. I love people and I love them deeply so for me to walk away from a friendship is difficult. So I’m not saying choosing your friends is easy but I am saying it’s necessary for your ultimate happiness. If someone is bringing unnecessary drama into my life I walk away and love them from a distance. True friends will build you up and encourage you. For a long time I almost thought true friends didn’t exist but I kept praying. I prayed for Godly friends to come into my life and I finally have them. I am so thankful and so happy to be surrounded by all these wonderful people. If you are becoming discouraged I challenge you to keep praying. Pray hard, pray often, and pray intentionally.
Hey all! Today I am guest posting over at She is Set Apart. I would LOVE it if you could head on over there to read my post as well as see what they’re all about. I hope you all enjoy the post and take something away from it that you can apply to your life.
Hey all! I hope you had an amazing summer wherever you are. There are things about each season that I adore but I can never get enough summer! I LOVE SUMMER TIME! So I thought I would share my top faves about this glorious season.
1. The Fair.
BECAUSE LOOK. Isn’t it the cutest little thing? I also enjoy the rides tremendously! I love being out at the fairgrounds all day feeling like a kid again. Riding rides, petting animals, eating food, and enjoying every second.
2. Time with friends.
I’ve struggled with having friends my whole entire life up until recently (that’s a whole different post) but this summer I have been soaking up every minute I get with these precious people God has blessed me with.
Need I say more? Just look at that floatie.
4. Tan lines.
Call me crazy. But there is more to tan lines than making the color of your body uneven, tan lines tell a story. Have you ever had some insane looking tan line and as people point it out you end up telling them how you obtained that undesirable line that separates a darker color from your embarrassingly lighter color? You probably have. But now that you think about it doesn’t laughter and joy derive from those stories? Exactly. That’s why I love tan lines.
Well lovelies those are my top 4 favorites of summer. I would LOVE to know what you love about summer. You can connect with me by commenting on here, facebook, twitter, and instagram. I can’t wait to hear your faves!
So I told y’all I spent a long weekend at Bethel in Redding CA. But what I haven’t talked about is the amazing deliverance I received. I want to share this with you because it is the greatest testimony of how God can work in your life without you realizing what he is doing.
To start, while we were making the treacherous 10 hour drive down to sweet Cali we spent some time journaling and asking God what he wanted to do in our lives. I wrote down a lot of things that had to do with physical healing. I so desperately wanted to receive my long awaited healing in my physical body. My heart was set, my faith was strong, and I was determined. I also wrote down the word deliverance. At the time I didn’t understand why, I knew what the word meant but I didn’t think that word applied to me specifically. Once we arrived on Thursday evening we went to the prayer house to spend some time in God’s presence. A lot of people were receiving great and powerful words from the Lord but I was still feeling numb, and emotionless which left me feeling angry, confused, and frustrated. But I thought to myself “It’s only Thursday. I have the whole weekend to connect with the Lord.”
On Friday we spent the day at the lake. Talk about a beautiful creation. While at the lake I really felt like God was telling me I don’t have to cry to feel his presence. There are a million other ways to express emotion. Believe it or not that was very eye opening for me. For some odd reason I always believed I had to cry in order to really feel the presence of the Lord. Then Friday evening we went to service. Church was good but not great. I was really confused. During worship I just didn’t feel connected. I think because I was expecting something so big I didn’t realize that God can work through you in smaller ways but have the same big impact. After worship while we were still up in the front the pastor started to pray and I felt refreshed I thought “this is it. My healing is about to come.” But it didn’t. Although I felt something leave out of my body I still felt the pain. I did not understand. I was completely confused.
Saturday came and my pain was still prevalent. A group of us went to the Healing Rooms at Bethel and I was STOKED. I just knew I was going to be healed. Something big was about to happen and I was expectant. Throughout the sessions I was just anxious. Waiting for the pain to subside. It never did. Although thankfully the Lord took away the distraction it was causing but it was disappointingly still there. After a few hours I was finally receiving some prayer from the prayer team. They spoke the words of the Lord over my life and declared healing in the name of Jesus. I didn’t feel the pain leave. It was STILL there. I didn’t understand. After another prayer they all seemed to notice something different. There words were “Whoa. I felt that. You look different. You look great.” I appreciated their words but my bewilderment became overwhelming. I sat in a chair with a blank stare, wondering why my physical healing didn’t come. I chose not to be negative but I was frustrated. We then went to spend the rest of the day at the lake and I was ready to put my anger aside and have some fun. It was a great time with friends and we had some really precious time with the Lord under the stars.
Lastly, Sunday was here and I was ready. Ready to receive my physical healing I was convinced would happen. Service went well and afterwards I went up to get prayer. I let her know about my physical pain and also how I was feeling stuck, numb, and frustrated. She prayed a sweet prayer over me and gave me the word on Calm Delight. Afterwards I felt so happy. I felt such joy in my heart. I then realized that I was delivered from depression. Something I had been struggling with for a long time. The chemical imbalance inside me was gone. The thing that was making its home in my heart even though it didn’t belong, left. It’s gone. It is 100% gone and I am AMAZED. The whole time I was expecting a physical healing I didn’t realize God was delivering me from something that has held me back even more than my physical pain. It all came together on Sunday. I wrote down the word deliverance because God has delivered me, I felt something leave my body thinking it was physical pain but it was depression, the prayer team felt the presence of the Lord come and lift the burden of depression off of me which left me looking different.
I love that God showed up and totally threw me for a loop. I was expecting something big and something big happened. Although it wasn’t what I was preparing my heart for it was something I needed and I am so gracious for the deliverance God has blessed me with. I hope this story has encouraged you with whatever you’re going through. Its amazing how God can work and do something miraculous when you were least expecting it.
Recently I decided to make a bucket list. I always thought these were pointless and just plain silly. But I went for it and it really gave me such a sense of adventure which I think is SO important. Without adventure, where are you going? These are all experiences I have always wanted to do and I’m now making it a point to do them. There are a few I will be crossing of next month and there is a couple I have already crossed off!
- Go to Bahamas
- Go on a cruise
- Go to atlantis water park
- Go to Disneyworld
- Go to all 50 states
- Zip line
- Ride horses in Canada
- Go to times square in nyc
- Go to austrailia
- Go on a safari in Africa
- Go to the san diego zoo
- See fireflies
- Go glamping
- Hike Palouse falls
- Hike Multnomah falls
- Go to Las Vegas
- Go swimming at midnight
- Go to Santorini Greece
- Ride a camel or elephant
- Ride in first class
- Voo doo donuts
I hope this list has inspired you to make your own! If so, then please share it with me! I want to see what YOU want to do.
Hey lovelies! I’m so happy to be back. I feel so refreshed, rejuvenated, and excited! I just spent a long weekend over at Bethel in Redding, CA. If you haven’t heard of them you need to go look them up. AMAZING!
God really spoke to me while being there. Lately I’ve been feeling so numb and emotionless. I didn’t understand why because my life has been going great. I just wanted to feel something. I went up for prayer after one service we went to, and this really sweet gal prayed for me and she told me something that really stuck with me. She said “Joy doesn’t always look like this crazy, ecstatic, jumping up and down emotion, you can have a calm delight”. I thought that was just what I needed. I don’t have to scream, cry, or laugh to feel God’s presence. I can just sit in contentment and have such a “calm delight”. I challenge you all to sit in the presence of the Lord for at least a couple minutes today and experience a calm delight. It is so refreshing, calming, and enjoyable. I really took this word to heart and dug in to God’s presence like I never have and my amazement of his promises never ceases.
I hope you all took something away from this and will continue to apply God’s promises to your life. I’m so happy to be back here chatting with you all and I’m READY to re-launch this lifestyle blog. I know God is working through me and I know he is working through YOU so lets work together and make this a positive and safe place to be.